The Downward Spiral to Diagnosis

"I have to use the bathroom" "Again?"

It started when I was 11. I remember the exact moment I first felt Crohn's pain. I was at choir camp. It hurt, but somehow I knew I needed to use the bathroom. So I did, and it went away. I thought nothing of it. But it happened the next day. And the day after that. And every day for the next year, every time I had to use the bathroom. 

This sign is my saviour.

I was ok. I coped all through grade 6. I did well. Then after school ended for the year, everything changed. I started having more pain, I was tired all the time, I had to get up to use the bathroom multiple times a night. I had no appetite. I started using the bathroom over 12 times a day, because of this I started losing weight rapidly. By the time I was diagnosed I had plummeted to a scary 85 pounds at my current adult height. I was so pale, and I started passing blood when I went to the bathroom, making me feel even worse. It got to a point where I ate half a sub for three days. Not half a sub each day, one, six inch sub for three days. I began to have the most excruciating pain when I swallowed anything. Even water. If you've ever swallowed a potato chip  and had a sharp edge drag down your throat, you know, the pain radiates to your chest and back and you can't breath. That was the kind of pain I had every time I swallowed.

My parents knew something was very wrong, so they brought me into our family doctor who ordered blood work. I cant remember what the results were, but they were not good. In less than two weeks I had an indium scan done. It's this test where they take a ton of your blood, dye your white cells with radio active dye, put them back in you, then take XRays. The dye makes you light up like a Christmas tree in the spots where your white cells go.

That test was enough to convince the doctors at the hospital that I needed an endoscopy and colonoscopy almost immediately. About two weeks later I had that done. I remember being terrified of going into the operating room alone, worrying that I would have to wake up in the middle of the scope to use the bathroom... I obviously did not have a clear understanding of how anaesthesia works. 

When I woke up I was taken to a hospital room, and my parents quietly told me that I was probably going to have to stay at the hospital for a few days. I cried when they said that. Then, the gastrointerologist that had performed the scope on me came in and said the rock solid words that would change me forever: "Yes, you have Crohn's Disease". 

A Pain in the Butt

"I'm not feeling well today". "Oh" Backs up a step. "No, don't worry, it's just my Crohn's. Not contagious" "Oh, what's Crohn's?" Sigh. 

Crohn's disease is an autoimmune disease that affects the digestive system causing inflammation occurring at any location of the digestive system. Symptoms include but are not inclusive nor limited to:  increased inflammatory markers in blood work, decreased appetite, malnutrition, weight loss, blood loss, fatigue, joint pain, red eyes, sore eyes, head aches, increased frequency in bowel movements, increased urgency in bowel movements, pain, lots of pain, more pain, and diarrhea.

Sexy.

Somewhere between me finishing elementary school and starting junior high (awkward stage for any adolescent at BEST) my immune system got confused. The poor thing was probably trying to figure out what fashion was, how to get boys to notice me or not notice me, panicking at the impending thought of being a teenager and totally thought that my digestive system was a threat to my survival. It launched a full blown attack, like that scene in Braveheart right after all the scots show their butts. It was brutal, but that will be another post in and of itself. 

Regardless, the primary symptoms I exhibit of my Crohn's is pain in my left lower quadrant (that lower quarter of my stomach on the left), increased frequency in bowel movements, increased urgency in bowel movements, fatigue, and diarrhea. My disease is primarily located in my stomach, ileum, and pretty much my whole colon. I've also had episceritis which is an inflammation of the white part of my eyes. 

This is what Crohn's disease is to me. Literally a shitty disease. A pain in the butt. 

Jack Mercury

"Some people are born sick, some people achieve sickness, and some people have sickness thrust upon them." - Not Shakespeare. 

I'm Jack Mercury, and I had sickness thrust upon me. I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease two weeks after I turned 12. That was almost 8 years ago. This unpredictable, chronic, and morbid condition has impacted me in ways that I never imagined possible and it's time to share it.

This blog will entail chronicles of my life, as someone who continues to pursue life, despite all of my challenges.

When you're sick, your perspective changes. So here is mine.

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