A Positive Struggle

"I just feel like everything is so overwhelming right now" "That's totally normal"

Amidst all the drama of my surgery, a close family friend of ours was diagnosed with cancer and very unexpectedly passed away. It was very fast, sudden, and no one really saw it coming, at least not this soon. It was my best friend's mother, and my mom's best friend. They met in prenatal classes and me and my bff were born 3 days apart. Needless to say, she was like my second mom.

With all of this happening and the amount of time I've had to be by myself and think, I've really had things put into perspective.

I've had a hard time dealing with the impact of my surgery and that's made it hard to keep positive. 

As a mental exercise, whenever I'm out and about I try to notice things that I'm grateful for, or notice things or people that I'm more fortunate than.  Needless to say this Thanksgiving, I will be very prepared. 

I feel like this has been a great way for me to try and keep humbled about my life. My surgery was life altering, but it wasn't life stopping, in fact, it was life saving. I just need to remember that and focus on the good and not the bad. I'm adding a page to my blog called "Positives" where I'm going to list all the stuff I think of. 

I hope all you spoonies are staying happy and healthy <3

Meat and Potatoes

"So you must have to be really careful about what you eat then, eh?" "Well, it depends."

When people think of eating to be healthy, they tend to immediately picture fruits, vegetables, whole grains and nuts. Mmmmm....nothing like a hot delicious salad! 

However, when you have active Crohn's disease, you would probably be better off pouring battery acid down your throat and praying for mercy. 

When I'm in a flare, I eat what would be considered the most unhealthy diet imaginable. Low fibre, high sodium, high fat, high carb, no dairy. 

White bread is my staple food, it makes up about 40% of my diet alone, followed closely by white rice. I eat sandwiches on white bread, with sliced turkey and a swish of mayonnaise at least once, if not twice a day. I rely on bacon, eggs, hot dogs and smoked salmon for protein. I have to limit my produce intake to about one serving a day, except for bananas, they're ok. Apples, broccoli, spicy foods like curry and thai food, cabbage, turnip, and carrots are completely off limits, all of which I learned the hard way. 

Although this diet may seem like every 8 year olds' dream, it gets bland pretty quickly. Every once in a while I give in a have a humungous stir fry or salad, and pay every bit of the price. Let me tell you, usually, it's worth every penny. 

This is what I've found affects me when I'm in a flare, no one's disease is the same. Other people I know live off of Boost and Ensure when they're sick. Other people go with steak and potatoes. This is just my own experience.

 But there is something you have to understand. Foods can worsen or trigger symptoms, but they cannot put you in a flare. Eating a piece of broccoli cannot warp your immune system into attacking your digestive system. That's just silly. 

When I'm well, I have so much more freedom with my food choices. I can have salad with my supper, berries on my oatmeal and just about as much melon as my heart desires. I still tend to avoid my trigger foods, but when my disease is in remission and under control, the reigning hand of the heart unhealthy diet loosens its' grip on my colon.